What is your first experience having sex with older men?

Must say very erotic, painful and too much pleasure. I was 24 and he was 56 when we got into a relationship. He is one of my lusty neighbour. And I had a hard sex crush on him. I decided to seduce him and started to stare at him whenever we met. And finally he got the signal. We exchanged our phone numbers and started chatting. I was dying to have sex with him so I told him everything. He had a small seperate room with attached toilet at the back of his shop. We decided to have sex there. I told my parents I am going to stay at my friend's place for two days. So in the evening I went to his shop and stayed there in the room. He came at night after closing his shop. I wore a red and black lingerie. My heavy boobs were bulging out. He was constantly staring at my boobs. I felt like I will have an orgasm by his staring. He hurriedly came close to me. With one hand he pulled my panties and with other hand grabbed my boobs. He started to kiss my cleavage. He grabbed my pussy and was pressing it hard. His fingers went into my clitoris. I was on cloud nine. We both started kissing each other passionately. I could feel his fingers rolling my clitoris and I was so wet. He pushed me into the bed. I hurriedly sat on my knees and opened his pant. He was not wearing his underwear and I got hold of his cock. It was black and medium but quite fat. Clean and shaved. He pulled my hairs and I spitted on his cock. I was rubbing it with my hands. I am too good in giving a BJ as once my ex told me. He took his fatty cock and inserted it inside my mouth. I never opened my mouth so much before as I had to do it now. I was literally swallowing it. I licked it like a Cornetto. He was moaning telling me not to stop for once. I kept on licking his small fatty cock and he kept on thrusting it inside my mouth. Suddenly he exploded inside my mouth. I spitted out. My mouth and face was covered with his cum. He grabbed my hairs pulled me up and licked my face like a dog. He was constantly telling me that he will make me his slut and would fuck me day and night. Oh man it aroused me like anything. He forcibly teared my bra. It hurt me so I slapped him. I loosened the knot from behind and my boobs came out like a gush of water. The moment he saw that he looked like an animal. I must say that I got a bit scared because he was staring at my boobs like he would eat them now. He grabbed both of my melons and was pressing them so hard. He took both of them in one hand and pulled me towards him. I was so wet feeling so slippery in the thighs. He told me to sit on a small table. He lifted my legs up made them spread as much and started licking my pussy. He was sucking my clitoris like juice and licking with his tongue. At instance I felt his tongue going inside my hole. What a moment that was. He was biting my skin and walls and I kept moaning in pain. My pink pussy turned full red. And I felt my clitoris will bulge out. He kept on doing that until I had an orgasm. He started licking my juice like a thirsty dog. He wanted to put his finger inside my hole but I did not let him do that as I got scared his nails might hurt me. He terribly forced his fingers inside me and I hit him. This time he did not spare me he slapped tight on my pussy and fingered my clitoris so hard. I was resisting his fingers from going inside my hole. I could see his small fatty cock standing like eiffel tower. I took his cock rubbed it and told him to put it inside me and show me his manliness. I kept my hole opened. He took his cock and put it inside then pushed my thighs towards him. His cock was fully inside me. It was so fat that I literally screamed. He started stroking. I was scratching his hands in pain. At first he was doing it slowly but then increased his speed. I was moaning so much. Both my melons were jerking so fast. I took one of his hand and told him to grab one of my boobs. I grabbed the other boob and with the other hand I was tightly holding him. The table was quite small and was jerking. His fatty cock was literally giving me pain and pleasure. I could feel how his fatty cock was coming out and going inside. I could hear sound like thap! thap! thap! thap! thap! He kept on doing that and then we changed our position. He wanted a doggy style now so I kneeled on bed and put my round ass in front of his face. To seduce him more I was shaking my ass. He slapped my ass thrice and then with one jerk put his cock inside me. This time he was not slow. His strokes were so hard. He said slutty things like he would fuck me so hard that I will die but he will still keep fucking and licking my dead body. I kept on moaning in pain. Sometimes his cock would come out and again with strong strokes he would put it inside me. He slapped my ass hard and would even slap my pussy. I would scream in pain due to his slaps. I tightly hold the bars of the bed I felt like the bed would break. He was slapping my pussy whenever I was telling him to do it softly. He did not stop until his white juice was all over my ass. My vagina was paining so badly. He sat beside me and messaged my body telling me that he wants more. I couldn't make it longer as my vagina was paining. I begged him to give me some break. After some hours we again started. I gave him a strong BJ. Then we took the missionary position. He tightly hold my arms and pushed it upwards grabbed one of my boobs with his mouth and kept on fucking me. He was literally eating my boobs biting my nipples. After some time he released me. He sat on my thighs and started deep stroking. He kept on doing it with full force. I fingered my clitoris along. My whole body was shaking like earth quake and I again had an orgasm. Here our first night end.

The night we fucked each other like wild animals. He tore my lingerie previous night so I decided to remain naked when he comes. I fingered myself and kept on rolling my melons so to seduce him. He came and loved the scene. He got his pants off and sat beside me rolling my clitoris. I started to moan more. We both stood up. His fatty cock was on my hands. I kept rubbing it up and down. It got erected. Both of us were wet. He made me sat on the table. Spread my legs. Opened my pussy wide and with one strong thrust put his fatty monster inside me. He pulled my legs towards him and held my waist with his arms. Then picked me up in the air and kept fucking me. I never had sex in this position earlier. It was so painful and amazing. I was swingling in the air and his monster cock going deep inside my hole making me moan like anything. I could see my boobies jumping high. I grabbed him behind his neck and did not want him to stop. My huge melons were hitting his face. I slipped suddenly. His cock came out of the hole. I shouted at him not to stop and keep on fucking me till morning. I was loving it so much. He picked one of my leg and picked me up then put his cock back in the hole. This time half of my boob was inside his mouth. I hold him tightly with my legs and he kept on stroking my hole. The room was filled with aaahhhhh uuuuuuuffffffff yyyyeeeeessssss ppppllllleeeeaaseeee aaaaaaaaaaaaaa. He did this for long and then threw me on the bed. I immediately had an orgasm. He sat on the table watching me. I went to him sat on his lap putting his monster inside my little garrage and did a cow girl. I took both his hands put it on my boobs as it were jumping heavily. We did it for some time and then I did it facing my ass towards him. He was moaning heavily and then he ejacuated. We took a break and I breastfeed him. He sucked my boobs like a small baby. My nipples were so hard dying to go inside his mouth. After some time we again started. He sucked my red pussy and I gave him a BJ. We did in missionary style. He grabbed my melons sat on my thighs with his cock fully inside stroking hard. I hold his arms and both of us were moaning. We did it for quite sometime. We both stood up and he forced me to lean on the table grabbing my ass spreading my legs and fucked my pussy from behind. He kept rolling my clitoris. Within minutes I had orgasm. He still continued with his deep strokes. And then I could here some sound like plastic fach! fach! fach! I had an intense orgasm and he too ejaculated. I looked at him. He smiled at me and I smiled at him back. We went to the bed. He kept his face inside the gaps of my boobs and we fell asleep. Next day early morning he was cleaning the room I took a shower and came back home. I would never forget this experience ever in my life. It was one of the best sex I had. We did it many a times after that. But now as I am staying outside I don't get him much. I heard that he is in a live in relation with a widow. That widow must be enjoying his deep strokes.

The very next day we once again fucked in the afternoon in missionary style. It went nice and smooth. He behaved gently. Pressed my boobs and licked my whole body. We bathed together. He told me about his many affairs. And how he was enjoying fucking a brunette like me. We both waited for the night to come.

Hi everybody! I have been looking at posts on narcs and narc abuse on here and if has really helped me out a lot. I am currently struggling with my situation and need some advice/support. I met a narc last year, everything seemed to good to be true. Love bombing, always texting calling and taking me on dates. Everything changed when someone warned me about him out in public in front of him and who he is. This caused a conflict with us and the love bombing seized. he would tell me that everything is okay and i can come and talk. He would set a time limit on me and kick me out after that. he would then text me like everything was fine and we hung out again and after that he completely ghosted me for one week. He came back and texted me a week later laughing about the ghosting and acting like nothing had happened. he continued to text me ( not like in the beginning) make plans with me, then on the day of the plans he would just ghost me. One day he would act interested the next silence. i contacted him a month later and he acted like nothing happened. He was on a vacation and sent me a picture of another woman ( someone he allegedly met on the trip) to strike a reaction but i never gave him one. After the trip he came to my place and was extremely rude, accusing me of going on dates with a bunch of men. The next day he accused me of being an alcoholic and that he wanted nothing to do with me but said well maybe we can be "friends" then ghosted me i assumed at this point it was over and i would never hear from him again. He contacted me on the holiday a month later acting like everything was great. We ended up hanging out a month or so later and when we hung out it went well, i thought things were going in the right direction. after we hung out.. silence. I would try to text him and if he replied it would be very short then he just stopped replying. He ghosted me for almost three months. I thought he was done this time and of course he popped up again like nothing happened. At this point i was getting sick of if so i questioned him as to why he dissapeared and always does this. Of course he had some sob story about a injury and family member dying of cancer. I felt pity for him and he gave me an apology.. so i took him back stupidly. things seemed to be going smooth for a couple months, of course until his family member died and his injury got better he never contacted me and was distant. Menawhile, i was there for him during the difficult time for him. He lied to me about the funeral and never wanted to chat. I was chasing him and he would always claim nothing was wrong but when i said i thought he used me when he was down he could not handle it and would always tell me he didnt care and to go away. I would get so upset i would try texting him to work it out he would barelt respond and if he did he would not be nice about it. we did hang out a couple times after that, he would ignore me after. One day i was like hey i think you are seeing someone else, and i was like well ixam seeing someone so no problem if you are he said " buy bye good luck with your new guy stop contacting me" i was devastated and tried to get into contact with him for weeks then i just gave up and accepted it was over. He ended up contacting me a month later acting like everything was fine. He wanted to go out and have drinks i told him i would. He and i both seemed to have a great time. He ends up ignoring me again. I kept texting him trying to figure out what was wrong. He kept saying everything was fine and i said ok can we hang out again? He said maybe i was like why? He just kept saying maybe … our last conversation we had… i said what is wrong ? He said nothing is wrong everything is fine. I asked him why he keeps saying maybe. He said " maybe but i dont want to see you right now" i said why? He saix " im just not feeling it, if i wanted to date i would" i said why did you contact me less then a week ago wanting to go out? He said i didnt.. even though he did. So i said should i just move on or what? He said whatever you want to do. So i said that he was really confusing me and asked him if he had anything more to say before i move on? My messages were turning green so i panicked he blocked me and reacted irrationally. I said " omg did you block me? My messages are not going through. Even texted him on my work phone asking what was up. And called him twice ( please dont judge me i know it is pathetic i never was this type of girl before him) so he replied and said " Ok I'll block you now" then immedietly blocked me. He has never blocked me before since I have met him he will just ghost. Is this ths final discard aka " grand finale? Did i just push him too far? this has upset me so much its hard to even function.